Siapa kau?

 

Kau bukan Tuhan,

Jangan pernah ambil alih kerja Tuhan,

Yang menilai hambaNya,

Yang menentukan aturan pada ketetapannya.

 

Kau bukan malaikat,

Jangan pernah rasa diri lebih mulia,

Malaikat juga pernah melakukan kesilapan,

Malaikat juga berusaha melaksanakan amanah diberikan.

 

Kau bukan syaitan,

Jangan pernah bangga dengan dosa,

Syaitan tahu dahsyatnya neraka,

Syaitan juga tekun menjauhkan kita dari surga.

 

Kau hanyalah seorang hamba,

Jangan pernah lupa tanggungjawab terhadap pencipta,

Lumrah manusia pandai pelupa,

Namun jangan sentiasa alpa.  

#TRW quotes

 

"Recount a time when you faced a challenge, setback or failure. 

How did it affect you, 

and what did you learn from the experience?" - Clay Jensen

Trip to Sandakan

Good day readers,

 

Last few weeks, I take a day off from work and having a road trip to Sandakan. This vacation was a last minute plan vacation and Alhamdulillah, all went well. So, my family was already there as they left on Tuesday while I cannot apply last minute leave from my office. Hence, I left on Thur sday night as my leave was approved for Friday only. Here is my short vacation tentative: ~

 

Thursday

- Left work at 6pm, go have dinner around office area

- Book ehailing car, head to Terminal Bas Inanam.

**I choose to go Sandakan by bus as don't have night flight from KK to Sandakan (limited flight as MCO are still on going). My bus ticket was already purchased earlier by my family before they heading to Sandakan. For anyone planning to go Sandakan by bus, things you should know there is only two companies running the bus services to there (Sida and Tung Ma). They operated by turns (today Sida, tomorrow Tung Ma) and last bus is at 8pm. Mind you, once you reached the terminal, you will be surrounded with the bus ticketing agent or shall I said attacked? I'm freaked out and panic at that time because it is still MCO but there is no social distancing practiced by the ticketing person. It's maniac! Once I told them I already have ticket, they back off. Wait at the terminal until almost 8pm, the bus conductor open the door and we queue for health screening (MCO procedure) and depart on the dot. Once the bus moved, the co-pilot will ask each and everyone of us where we want to be dropped. I just stop at the terminal as mum's don't informed me where should I stop. They said there will be a bus inspection by police at Sandakan border (normal procedure, we need to show our identification document) but as I'm aware, there are none at that night. Lucky me, so I slept peacefully during the bus trip. I woke up juga la several time. 

- Arrived at Sandakan at 2am. My parent fetch me up and I continue my sleep at the hotel.

 

Friday

- Breakfast with family at Sri Mersing Restaurant

- Head to Sepilok, watch Orang Utan. Ticket price RM5/pax

**If you want your visit to Sepilok enjoyable, you should visit during the feeding time at 10am or 3pm. You can capture photograph in there using your mobile phone f.o.c but if you bring SLR camera, you need to pay for RM10. Mind you again, bag are not allowed inside the orang utan area. You can stored in the provided locker or at your own car. You can watch Sun Bear also there but you need to purchase different ticket for entrance. We don't go watch Sun Bear as it is scorching hot!

- Visit our uncle and cousins at Sg Manila

- Head to Agnes Keith house. RM2/pax

**Some people said the house is creepy but for me, the house is cool! I love old, traditional house. Spend almost an hour at the house. During our visit, just me and my sister in the house. There is no other visitor and the rest of family members don't want to enter there so they wait at car. Next to Agnes Keith house, got English Tea house where you can have your meal there. But none of my family wanted to go there. Nevermind, I'll visit it in my next trip to Sandakan. 

- Go to Sim-Sim, makan ikan bakar for our lunch! 

**Most people will suggest to go here to eat smoked fish. Cheap they said. I don't know la cheap or not cause I'm not the one who's paying. But what I know, I enjoyed my meal.

- Strolling around Sandakan town and hunting for Sandakan UFO tart.

**If you are a sweet-tooth person, you should go looking for the tart! It is delish! Sadly, most of the café at the town area are running out of stock. So we head to Batu 8 shop, Kedai Roti Mee Ngar. At that bakery shop, only two pieces left! Thank God!

- Back at our hotel, taking nap and performing prayer.

- At night, we heading to our cousin house at Taman Rimba, cook at their house and having dinner there.

- After dinner, I ask my niece and nephew to bring me to Mydin Sandakan, we go buy Boba drinks. Yummehh!

- My brother go for durian hunting and the rest of us just resting at hotel.

 

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Saturday

- My cousin go for jogging nearby IJM area (I forgot the place name)

- Having our breakie together

- Go buying the UFO tart again at Mee Ngar

- Dad want to have the sup payau, so we stopped at one restaurant nearby the bakery shop and having our early lunch before we heading back to KK.

- Stop by at Mydin Sandakan, buying few things and visiting my cousin food stall there. 

- Heading back to KK and surprise surprise! There is a police inspection at the border.

**We need to wait for almost half hour I think. They only allowed one side of the road to go through at a time. 

- Stopped at Telupid for prayer and they bought buah Salak sold at the roadside. 

- Reach Ranau around 6pm, we stopped at Pekan Kundasang.

- Having our early dinner at Kelisa café. I suggest my family to try their signature dish 'Sinalau'. 

**Usually people will think sinalau is pork. That's a big no! Sinalau means salai (smoked) in Dusun language. Bakas means boar. But at Kelisa's they only served chicken or meat (cow meat) and it is Halal! The owner is muslim ya!

- Continue our journey to KK after dinner and we reach around 8pm.

 

That's all about my short notice journey to Sandakan. I'm surely gonna revisit Sandakan as there's many places I wanted to go. #dayangbucketlist

 

Yours,

dayangbedt

 

 

 

Kalah dalam Menang?

Adakah kau rasa dunia isinya hanya kau yang punya

Adakah kau lupa ataupun kau buta kau dan aku hamba

Kuasa harta wanita menaburi minda mengotori jiwa dan bicara

Bila bicara bicaranya semua besar

Mendabik dada besar egonya

Lupa diri lupa Pencipta Yang Maha Besar

Hatinya hitam kelam terbungkam

Jiwa tak tenang kalah dalam menang

 

Kemewahan diri bukanlah tanda kehebatan insan

Berteduh dibumi Tuhan

Fikirkan saat nyawa ditarik keluar badan

Tiada siapapun yang tahu Rahsia Tuhan

Siapa dulu pergi dulu mungkin aku mungkin kamu

Kau katakan tunggu dulu

Kau belum 50

Sedangkan kematian laju mengejarmu

Ahh kerasnya hati masih gagal mengerti

Bangunlah dimalam sunyi bertanyakan pada Ilahi

Aku bukan hipnotis Bukan juga ISIS

Jauh sekali extremis

Aku hanya optimis

Hidup sarat protwist

Sama macam sarkis

Dengan Tuhanmu Jangan pernah prejudis

Dalam era penuh depresi

Menanyakan apa yang kau cari

Konon nanya inspirasi

Inspirasi tak pelu kau tercari-cari  

Bangun malam tanya Ilahi

Beribu kali kau di ingati

Hidayah itu milik Ilahi

Mari sini semua dengar ini cerita

Orang kita kata nak senang

Kerna banyak simpan duit

Tapi Islam kata nak senang

Kerna banyak keluarkan duit

Sedekah Amal jariyah

Senyumanmu itu juga satu dakwah

Orang kita Kata sakit itu bala

Tapi Islam kata sakit itu penghapus dosa

Sabarlah walaupun kau sedang kecewa

Biarkan engkau miskin harta dan kuasa

Tapi jangan kau miskin jiwa

- 1

 

"tarik rambut di dalam tepung; rambut jangan putus, tepung jangan berserak"

 

I am calm and have think and rethink my decision. So, here it is. For me, for my self, for my family, for my friends and for all people that crossing path in my life. May the odds will forever in our favour.

 

 

“The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” —Mark Twain 

Someday You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You

Someday you'll miss me like I missed you.
Someday you'll cry for me like I cried for you.
Someday you'll want me back like I wanted you.
Someday you'll understand why you broke my heart when I didn't.
Someday you'll understand that I was the only girl that put up with all your mess.
Someday you'll know how pain feels, how you hurt me.
Someday your life will turn upside down like mine when you broke my heart.
Someday you'll have someone hurt you like you hurt me.
Someday you'll realize how lonely life can be.
Someday you can sit down and think how much I meant to you
When you meant the world to me.
Someday you'll know how I really felt.
Someday you'll try to come back to me like I tried with you,
But someday you'll love me when I won't love you.

~ A poem by SUMMER

Alive!

I am too distracted with all the losing,

Being way too oriented with the sadness,

Until I forgot to thanks for what I have.

But that’s us, a normal human being,

Easily being out of focus on what we have,

Thanks God for a little reminder that you have send. 

I should be grateful for what I have,

Eventhough the world seems to against me,

All things are out of places,

Being ignored, backstabbed, left behind,

Nevermind! Nevermind then! 

I should pick up myself and be thankful,

Cause I still ALIVE!

Breathing the air.

Yes!

Still alive! 

Terasing

Disebalik senyum,

Tersembunyi segala duka dan lara,

Disebalik paras kegembiraan,

Terselindung segala pedih dan perit hidup,

Yang aku sorok dari pandangan umum. 

Hipokritkah aku?

Namun,

Adakah insan yang mampu mengerti derita ini?

Masihkah ada yang sudi mendengar?

Wujudkah mereka yang prihatin?

Aku hipokrit atau kamu hipokrit?

Mengaku peduli hakikatnya tidak,

Indung yang kusangka sentiasa mengertiku,

Kakanda yang kusangka sentiasa ada disaat aku perlu,

Adinda yang kusangka sudi mendengar keluhanku,

Semuanya dusta!

Ternyata aku terbiar bersendirian,

Aku kini terasing,

Terbiar tidak diendah,

Menanggung sedih yang tidak terperi,

Aku bersyukur masih mampu waras berfikir,

Masih punya iman di dada,

Masih cekal mengharungi liku kehidupan,

Semoga aku tetap tabah menghadapi,

Walau tanpa sokongan di sisi.

#2

F:

Have you ever fall in love?

See her, that’s what people in love do.

She’s the best example of people in love.

Not afraid to show the love to the world.  

I:

Do you know how’s people in love?

People in love tend to do stupid things.

Don’t be in love with somebody you don’t love with.

You don’t have to reciprocate it if you are not into it. 

S:

What makes you in doubt?

Only you know the answer.

You may tell us the other way round. 

But the real answer is in your heart. 

Losing

I started to lose,

Losing one by one that I have,

Losing the confident,

Losing the health,

Losing the trust,

Losing the love,

Losing the care,

From all around me,

And the worst after all is I am started to lose my self,

Piece by piece,

I can feel it.

To mum and dad,

I am sorry. 

 

Aku sang pendosa..

Sungguh aku berasa malu untuk terus berjalan di muka bumi ini,

Layakkah aku terus menerus menikmati nikmatmu ini,

Aku sang pendosa,

Aku sang penderhaka,

Bumi terasa hina untuk aku diami,

Syurga belum tentu tempatku,

Namun tidakku tertanggung seksa jahanammu,

Di manakah selayaknya tempatku?

Aku sendiri buntu.

Satu persatu nikmatmu kau tarik dariku,

Satu persatu kasih disekelilingku kian pudar,

Masing-masing kian menjauh dari genggamanku,

Pudarnya kasih yang dulunya mekar,

Indung yang menyayangi kini mengabai,

Teman di sisi kini menghilang,

Tubuh yang sihat kini lemah dan longlai,

Hanya air mata setia menemani setiap hariku,

Di manakah selayaknya tempatku?

Aku kini hanyalah seperti jasad yang tidak bernyawa.

Aku redha dengan ketentuanmu,

Inilah bayaran yang perlu ku tanggung,

Duka yang aku lalui ini belum tentu mampu membayar semua dosaku,

Akulah sang pendosa,

Yang tidak layak untuk dikasihi,

Andai ajal menjemputku,

Ku pohon maaf buat semuanya,

Aku hanya manusia yang hina.