One day~

One day,

One fine day,

The day will come,

Where I no longer there,

Disappear from your life,

Cause nobody care,

Nobody really care,

All they care is about their reputation,

But do they really care about my feeling? 

For them; they didn’t recognise their daughter,

But don’t they think I have lost my trust in them,

For them; I have changed, jinx or minx,

But do they ever try to understand why? 

I have lost a place in them,

I have lost someone that I can rely on,

They more care about the outsider,

More than me; their own blood,

So I’ll just wait for the day to come,

The day of my disappearance,

The one fine day,

Indeed; I am the ‘Hannah Baker’ of real world,

The one who’s suffer alone,

Keeping her pains on her own,

Less the tragic part; maybe,

Shall we wait till the one fine day to come,

Sayonara then!

Salam Lebaran 1441H

 

 Selamat Aidilfitri guys!

This year is the first year where we are not going back to kampung in celebrating the festive. No sembahyang raya at masjid - we perform it at home, just the five of us. Dad recite the khutbah after the pray. Sebak sis! Raya this year does feel different for me. A new me shall I say. The one that more appreciating my self and my family. I don’t want to share the sad part about it. Raya is about happy things only.. So here’s the happy pictures then! 

Biggest achievement!

Salam Aidilfitri readers..

Yes, indeed I wrote this on the raya eve. Alhamdulillah, another Ramadhan have been through and what can I said is this year Ramadhan is very different and special compare to the rest Ramadhan in my life..

This year, the covid-19 virus were the biggest issue faced around the world. So, most of us have to take a precaution and restrict our movement. Cannot meet people often, no iftar together with buddies and some of us cannot celebrate raya with family. Cannot balik kampung at all. We also didn’t balik kampung this year although crossing district is permitted here in Sabah. We don’t want to risk the health for people at our kampung especially my aunt yang ada penyakit 3 serangkai tu. 

So, the biggest achievement this year are:

1) Never missed sungkai together with family 

- biasanya ada jak sungkai with friends di sana sini. This year, totally sungkai with family and all home cook meals. I even made the 30 days sungkai menu for my family! 😉😉😉

2) Have not missed tarawih 

- normally bila berbuka di luar tu, mesti missed tarawih. So, this year I have not miss tarawih at all (except the one masa cuti cannot sembahyang la!) 

3) khatam quran

- since highschool, usually I will only khatam once in Ramadhan. But, this year.. I have khatam thrice! Biggest achievement ever! Twice together with my family, where it started with me inviting my dad to recite quran together then joined my mum and mum asked my sister to join and my sis invite my brother. So we khatam twice together 😊 another one time, I recite by my own together with the translation which I almost cannot achieve but alhamdulillah achieved at asar time just before the last iftar for this year. Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah the almighty. 

My first quran. Dad bought for me when I’m in primary school

Tafsir quran mum bought for me when I’m in secondary school

So, there is a blessing in disguise despite the issue faced around the world right 😉 All and all, “which favours of your Lord would you deny?”

db

Random #02

 

If you look me for my beauty,

One day the beauty may fade..

 

If you seek me because of my intelligence,

One day the knowledge may be forgotten..

 

If you aware me due to my attitude,

One day the attitude may change..

 

Hence, it is better if you acknowledge me as me..

Not because of the beauty nor the brain nor the attitude.

 

I'm just tired.

 

 

 

‎HATI PEREMPUAN

‎"يجب أن يكون قلب المرأة قريبًا جدًا من الله بحيث يجب على الرجل أن يطلب الله أولاً للعثور عليه فقط"

‎"Hati seorang wanita seharusnya begitu dekat dengan Allah, sehingga seorang lelaki harus mencari Allah terlebih dahulu hanya untuk menemukannya."

 

 

 

I forgive everything, but I surely will never forget what have you said and done to me.

Se-Ku-Fu

سکوفو

Bismillahirrahmannirahim..

I believe all of us have heard this word. “Sekufu” But, do we really understand it? Okay, let’s discuss about it then! 

Ramai orang selalu cakap, cari jodoh biarlah yang sekufu. Berkawan kenalah yang sekufu. Okay, wait! Apa maksud sekufu ni? Sekufu dari segi apa yang dimaksudkan? Harta? Rupa? Agama? Ilmu? 

First and foremost, mari kita semak maksud sekufu yang sebenar. Perkataan ni dalam Arab disebut sebagai kafa’ah yang bermaksud sama/seimbang. Kafa’ah juga boleh didefinisikan sebagai keserasian. Serasi. That’s the word! Okay tu maksud dari segi bahasa. Dari segi istillah pula macam mana? Sekufu ni boleh diertikan sebagai keserasian antara pihak A dan pihak B. Kesepadanan. Ada yang kurang jelas lagi? 

Ramai yang ertikan sekufu ni setaraf. Maksud dia bila si A kaya, si B pun kena kaya. Kalau si A ni berpelajaran tinggi, B pun kena la sama taraf pendidikan dia, barulah boleh klik, baru ngam! No! No! No! Bukan begitu ya! Stop this kind of mentality. Ini nama dia jaga standard, bukan sekufu. Assabiah! Hahaha

I have seen lots of people yang kahwin (even my closest friends pun ada) yang dia punya pelajaran tahap SPM jak (tidak ada niat mau perlekeh ya) tapi pasangan dia belajar sampai tahap Ijazah. Bahagia ja, harmoni jak keluarga dorang. Ada juga yang family dia biasa2 jak tapi kahwin dengan pasangan yang dari keluarga berada. Yes, harmoni. No issue at all. Jadi, hentikan la mentaliti yang kena cari pasangan yang setaraf. 

Back to maksud sekufu itu balik which is SERASI! Walaupun tahap pendidikan si A tu rendah dari si B, tapi dorang serasi, terima seadanya dan tidak pandang hal ni sebagai isu besar, I’m surely they will live happily ever after. Kalau asyik dok banding-bandingkan, memang tiada la seri dalam perhubungan tu. Doesn’t mean that one education level is low than yours, he/she have no future. If there’s will, there’s a way. Tahap pendidikan tu cuma satu pencapaian yang berekod/bersijil dan diiktiraf. Tapi ada jak orang yang tahap pendidikan rendah tapi pengalaman dia superb! Malah lagi hebat dari orang yang ada sijil-sijil pendidikan tinggi ni. Hahahahaha. So, don’t look down on others walaupun dia tiada pengiktirafan setaraf kamu.

So, it is up to you to define who is your partner, who’s the one you looking forward to? Yang ‘setaraf’ atau ‘serasi’? Which one you searching for? Tepuk dada, tanya hati, fikir dengan akal. But, in islamic religion, it do have an outlined guide for you in choosing your partner. Kalau rajin nanti, surely I will update about this topic in another post. 😉

 

Just my two senses,

dayangbedt

Random #01

You said you love rain, but when it comes, you seek an umbrella..

You said you love the sun, but when it shines you seek shade..

You said you love wind, but when it comes, you close your window..

That's why I am scared when you say you love me..

The vibes

Did you know that song plays an important role in a situation? Like you watching a horror movie. But what if there is no the scary sound effect? For sure it will not give you the scary shit. Nope, I am not wanting to tell about the scary vibes or horror movies whatsoever. I am about to share the song that makes me sad or maybe tearing unwillingly. Yupp, songs with a sad vibes for me. So here you go!

1) Saat terakhir by ST12

Hmmm couldn’t say more. The lyrics stated clearly. 

2) Semua tentang kita by Peterpan

People always used this song as a farewell song with friends. Majlis perpisahan, graduation celebration etc. But, did you know that this song is really a sad song especially when you lose someone, when someone is death. When I hear this song, it will always remind me to one of my best friend. He’s a good friend indeed. Alfatihah for him. 

3) Can’t help falling in love 

Actually, this song is one of my favourite before this. I always think this song is a happy song but the more that I listen to the song, the more that I realise this song actually is a sad song. So, can’t help holding the tears!

4) The night we met by Lord Huron

Ohhh okay, this song. I just can’t even hear this song. Even the melody itself. It does have a different vibes! A very sad vibes I think. That can makes me gloomy all day long. 

You may have a different opinion from me. But those are the songs that can kill my mood directly. Got some more songs but I think these are the top one. 

Regards,

dayangbedt

Life

Life,
It is wonderful,
If you know how to make it wonder..

How?
Maybe you should less comparing,
More appreciating,
Less expecting,
More in giving..

Oh wonderful life!

Opposite

It strange right,

Is it? 

We used to be closer,

We are friends

Until you said it, 

We were friends.

It strange right,

Is it? 

I used to push people,

But,

You push way more harder.

Indeed,

Now we are in the opposite direction,

I hope there will be a magnet,

That can pull us back,

Again,

Together. 

End! 

Thank you

Thank you..
Thank you, you..
For being you..

Thank you,
For the wonder you have bring to me..
For the amazing life you have shown to me..
For the new meaning of living..
Which is to be me..
To be the real me..

Thank you,
For advising me to be myself,
For giving me the fantastic idea,
For always be the paparazzi,
And for keeping my life buzz..

I am thankful for knowing you..
You that I kept your name hidden in here..
Yes, you..
This is for you,
And I thank you.