:: mistletoe ::: February 2020

Wednesday, 26 February 2020

The unspoken..

I never thought that my life would be in a misery like this..
Totally distress.
One moment, I feel happy.
One moment, I feel insecure and next I'll stress up.
Ohh dangg this overthinking mind!

It feels like I am totally loss my self, my identity.. ME!
I can't rant on my soc med, cause you were there..
I can't block you even though the choice is in my hand. Its hurt tho!
My life totally changed the moment I started knowing you..

You've changed my life in 180 degrees!
I love having the conversation with you.. although we barely talked much..
the silent is more louder and makes us feel occupied.

and surprisingly how you makes me feel comfortable to tell you something
telling you everything! Every story.. including the one that I don't ever want to remember..
I asked my self why? But, I couldn't find the answer for that..
That's what hurts more.. the unanswered questions..

Maybe I should not meet you on the first place..
Maybe I should not hanging around with you..
Maybe I should not knowing you..
Maybe we should not become more closer..
Hence I think, what's the best for now is to stop!
Yes,
STOP

It is not that I am hating you..
I just don't want to be hurt more..
I hate my self being sad..

Funny is it?
while I should sad for the other things..
You makes me feel more sadder..
and you cause me in serious pain than him.

So, I have decided. I'll disappear from your life..

Adieu!
-DB

Tuesday, 18 February 2020

Twenty twenty

Hello readers,

Just randomly want to update my blog. Yes, its been a while now since the last post. Almost three years. When I am a little kid, I never thought I would reach the year 2020. Yup, impossible for me at that time hahahaha, kids mind you now 😂

Okay, so now I am in the year of 2020. What's cool about it? naaah, nothing great much. But I hope there will always be a rainbow after the rain. Currently I am employed already. Yupp, the dream of every people since teenager - to earn your own money, to be grown up people, can make decision on your own. But reality check, not all things are amazing as your imagination. If you ask me, yes I do miss my study time - like really hoping I can go through that moments again - but we need to move forward right? So, here I am, surviving my life. Okay, that's all for now.

Lasttttt but not least, I hope I will be graduating my Master study in this year! Let's pray for it!
A little throwback won't hurt right 😉